Indeed. Moist therapy.

Does that even help?

I remember being six and jumping off a table in front of my grandfather to prove I was a man who wouldn't cry, so for me, even now, twelve years later, there is still so much shame attached to it. You are so brave for admitting to doing it and I wish I could do it myself.

This post must have been in my subconscious as you were in my dream last night. JM are you vegan and have you heard of a British band called Gene? In my dream you were and you hadn’t and now I have a need to know 🤷‍♀️😊

I’m pretty numb, actually, which is probably bad. Though yesterday, I didn’t cry so much as scream in my car until my throat got raw.

I think the last day I didn't have at least one manic crying jag was March 11.

I almost never cry, but strangely, last night I couldn't sleep, and when I got up, I just started crying. It's just too much to take in.

Yep. And then I take a nap before getting back to work.

I’m just grinding my teeth to powder.

I just did this morning knowing that it’s an odd time that we are in and there’s nothing to hold me back but just feeling the pain and sadness and the vulnerability of being human. It’s real. It’s real.

Not there yet. Sanding the shit out of a piece of wood until it's glass smooth has helped. Otherwise I just work and sleep and wish I could get out into the woods for a few hours.

Every day for the first 6 weeks of quarantine. About once every 2 weeks now. Honestly if I still had to be isolated from my partner it'd be daily.

When I'm done shaking a fist at the sky.

Sometimes! Also, as a person married to a man who rarely ever cries and knowing a lot of men have this same way of not coping with their emotions thanks to growing up with toxic masculinity...thank you for being a good example of a male who is OK with his emotions and OK with letting others know he has them. I hope more men can learn to deal with their emotions and actually feel OK showing them.

My heart aches every day.

No, but I wish I could. I think it's stuck.

Me. On the regular.

Seems that way.

Never, one of my tricks it to listen to Palo Santo (Expanded Edition) and the feeling goes away.

Short answer...Yes😥

Definitely!

For months now.

Is that not normal?

Nearly blubbed my way through this racism video by two black cricketers today https://youtu.be/MaJfif0Dq8Q

YES

One the one hand, watching DT burst into Nazi flames like a walking talking Hindenburg is reassuring, in that it seems likelier to lead to his demise. But the thought of what could happen if he doesn't lose is now more frightening than ever, which I didn't think was possible. (JM)

I mean, he’s been ok with treason, so?

Whatever this emoji set describes is happening to my brain: 🔪🧨🧠🎉

“Good people on both sides.”

I really love the sheet music of "The Snow Leopard." ❤❤❤

Am glad I got these. The Snow Leopard sheet music was gifted to a friend who plays piano, and she said she'd learn it if I didn't make her sing the accompaniment, and I said it was a deal and maybe sometime if I was lubricated enough I'd try to do the vocals. And the quarantine music - beautiful but I listen to it when I turn off my light at night and haven't gotten through a song yet without falling asleep ♥️ thank you